Hallar -- Lara Ramsey

i. Heart that is not heart find me/us don't find be found:
	Roadside tent of fluff 100 snow-white bears. Gentle bears with not-a-heart in hand. "I love you."
		Room full of not-a-heart balloons. One bursted. Inside, there was a messenger, a sincere thing:
			find me…
		the bursting room burst too soon to read the rest.
A message in a balloon in a room in a dream is not a message or a balloon or a room but a dream. ii. Always this heart. Disappointing not-a-heart: Inside all tea kettles, gardens, tool boxes, all boxes, funeral homes, expensive helicopter tours (for the full perspective). Ljubljana. Not the Midwest though. Always this heart. Thin and papery. Something laced. Something chocolate. Pink. Red. Always clean. Neat. Impotent. Maybe shiny. Could be flat or round (3- Dimensional) or puckered or punctured or flower-wrapped. Impure image of what otherwise is. iii. find me the Chorus (Androgynous): so that I will exist, Oppen's words skewed. Or are they his life-long love's,
	find my navel so that it will exist, find my nipples so that they will exist, find every hair of my belly, I am good (or I am bad), find me.
These limbs, those palms, that woman. Her commandment. Subject or object, subject to existence and becoming only in context of other. Ect, ext, ack! His heart only bled because they were there to watch it bleed. Without them what is a heart anyway? iv. one word v. muscle vi. Sacred: heart that is heart before or after the rain
	the rain that falls one of them said
whether the chorus is androgynous or not. Whether Mary's words or Oppen's. Whether Mary's navel or Mary's. vii. At the vortex, one of those 99-cent Mexican candles. Jesus' cupped palm pulls heart cavity from chest. Bleeds the scent of copper and roses. Fills the nose. Crawl inside. This God that is not-a-god offers this heart that is not-a-heart. A punctured thing does not ascend. viii. Lie down. Lie down with that one or stand close enough find navel, nipple, hair listen to that sound found in the center in there. Closer now than before to the matter. Search past hair rose of nipple concave navel. Find out that rain falls that had not been falling and it is the same world.