Emily Dickinson's Correspondences
Correspondence with Susan Dickinson

H L17a           Tuesday morning -

Sue - you can go or stay - There is but one alternative - We differ often lately, and this must be the last.

You need not fear to leave me lest I should be alone, for I often part with things I fancy I have loved,- sometimes to the grave, and sometimes to an oblivion rather bitterer that death- thus my heart bleeds so frequently that I shant mind the hemorrhage, and I only add an agony to several previous ones, and at the end of day remark a bubble burst!

Such incidents would grieve me when I was but a child, and perhaps I could have wept

H L17b

when little feet hard by mine, stood still in the coffin, but eyes grow dry sometimes, and hearts get crisp and cinder, and had as lief burn.

Sue I have lived by this. It is the lingering emblem of the Heaven I once dreamed, and though if this is taken, I shall remain alone, and though in that last day, the Jesus Christ you love, remark he does not know me there is a darker spirit will not disown it's child.

Few have been given me, and if I love them so, that for idolatry, they are removed from me I simply murmur gone, and the billow dies away into the boundless blue, and no one knows but me, that one went down today. We have walked very pleasantly Perhaps this is the point at which our paths

H L17c

diverge- then pass on singing Sue, and up the distant hill I journey on.

I have a Bird in spring
Which for myself doth sing
The spring decoys.
And as the summer nears `
And as the Rose appears,
Robin is gone.

Yet do I not repine
Knowing that Bird of mine
Though flown
Learneth beyond the sea
Melody new for me
And will return.

Fast in a safer hand
Held in a truer Land
Are mine
And though they now depart,
Tell I my doubting heart
They're thine.

H L17d

In a serener Bright,
In a more golden light
I see
Each little doubt and fear,
Each little discord here

Then will I not repine,
Knowing that Bird of mine
Though flown
Shall in a distant tree
Bright melody for me

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